Need advice :)

I have been a nightly drinker for about 2.5 years now.

2 years ago I would drink a handle of Tito’s myself (and probably more)

I was diagnosed with hypertension – put on a very low dose of a beta blocker I’ve been on since then.

I have made lifestyle changes and drink less than I used to. I would probably guess around 3-7 drinks a night. 7 is on the high, occasional end.

My liver enzymes dropped after my first bloodwork exam 2 years ago but I recently started seeing a new doctor this week and we did bloodwork and I was open with my habits.. she wants me to come in next month because liver enzymes are elevated again ( 115 on the high end).

but she wants me to come in after a night of not drinking anything – which I haven’t gone one night of not drinking (even the few times I had 1-2 and crashed) in over 2 years – to do the bloodwork again.

I have extreme health and just normal anxiety all the time. I’m worried if I don’t drink something will happen to me but I want to get normal results but I am scared to not drink. I know that sounds crazy but it’s just my mindset.

So looking for advice. I’m 33, all my other blood work was good. I am 5’1 – 130 pound female. Hairdresser so on my feet and moving around daily. Not sure if that helps. But definitely looking for some non judgmental advice.

I do understand that I have an addiction; can’t figure out if it’s mental or physical. I won’t allow myself to is what it seems. I recovered from a 10 year heroin addiction when I was 25 – 8 years clean from that. So I hold a terrifying reminder of what physical dependency is like.