Should I stay sober?

I am 24 and I never had any problems with alcohol, I mean I never felt that I was drinking too regularly. Once I just had an idea that I would stop drinking and I haven’t had a drink in 8 months, as I said, for no special reason in particular.

It is not a struggle for me to stay sober (thankfully) and I can enjoy myself in parties and having fun in clubs as well without consuming alcohol. Well, I am now in a weird state of mind as I don’t really feel anything special about it and I sometimes ask myself why I am doing it in the first place, as there is no real reason behind me quitting alcohol.

It is kind of hard for me to put my thoughts into words, but I don’t really feel like I am gaining anything by staying sober, it is kind of an ok thing for me, sometimes I feel good about not drinking, yet I sometimes feel like I could enjoy myself a little more at parties if I drank. My goal now is to stay sober for at least 1 year, which I feel I am definitely going to reach, but I don’t know if I want to stay sober after that or not.

I ask for your advice, if I should stay sober after the 1 year period ends, or should I get back into the occasional drinking? I know this seems like a really stupid thing to ask, as the sensible answer would be I think, is to stay sober.

I apologise for having such a stupid problem as I know that there are many people who struggle with drinking and staying sober and I feel like this is like a ‘first world problem’. I don’t know if anyone had this same situation or not. Is it maybe a part of the “staying sober journey”?

I feel like I don’t even know what the point of this post is, but I kind of feel like I want to share this with someone as I don’t really recieve concrete feedback from my friends, as they are always saying “yeah, you do whatever you want” and they are right I guess. Maybe I am looking for a reinforcement to stay sober? Maybe I am looking for a reinforcement that it is okay to drink sometimes? I don’t even know.

Sorry for the long post.