Drunk at 9 a.m

I am insanely worried with everything. Always was. I have fears regarding my drinking habits; But I have some sort of alcoholism in me. Not chemically addicted, but I love to drink. I’m now on vacation and drinking an “Angelica Zapata” wine, totally drunk. I already drank yesterday. And drank all this year, some times tooo much If I could find weed here, I would smoke, not drink, and that would be healthier I’m sad, but drunk