I should probably quit

I really need to quit drinkign now as I’m trying to get my lfie tohether and all, but I honestly don’t want to. I feel so chill rn, but also I know I took too mich from one bottle so whoever owns that bottle will see thst I tpok their alcohol.. Idk. Maybe I’ll ger really sad and confess, maybe not. It’s jsut annoiting I can’t get the medicines for my mental health that I want because thwy jist wanna give me some SSRIIS. I don’t want SSRIS. i want wellbutrin buy they don’t wanna give me they qamna gove me this ssri crap but I Font wanna because it didn’t help me fad anf it won’t help me. I’m scared tho.. I should have drank more, since I know It’ll be noticed I drank but I’m not home anymore so I can’t. Fuck me so hard,, honestly