Anyone else a sad drunk?

I used to get loud annoying and aggresive aggressive now through all the pain of being said words has left me a sad, sad 24 year old man.. even when I’m doing well in life as soon as I drink I feel discouraged defeated and anxious. Even though it’s suppose to numb them feelings. I’m not looking for advice. I’m a very emotionally aware and know why I feel like this. I’m just curious to see if anyone else feels the same and why?