I WANT TO TRY ALCOHOL

I dont have any escape route and my mental health is worsening. im afraid there is no solution to it, and I realized maybe trying alcohol can help a bit. I know this is not the right choice but either way i wanted to try so im complete beginner, i cant tell my father as he told me not to. and anyways i feel like im not gonna like the taste but i want to try.

I have no idea or any knowledge about alcohol as ive never tried it. any advices??

Ps. Mental health problems as in, i cannot handle toxic work space environment but I cant quit. The upcoming 4 months in the summer is going to be hell for me, im afraid of getting bullied again for being slow n such but if i can just stop overthinking, n ignore everything bad im told i think i will be able to go through the summer. The thing is, I need to earn to pay my tuition fees thats why this summer job is smthing i cant quit n I know its gonna make me mentally even worse whether i start to drink or not. Either way, km gonna be a mess even more than last yr.

Last yr due to getting bullied on the workplace for being slow n not being good liek others, i surffer3d badly that even after I quit the job, i couldnt even do 4-5 hrs of shift at another place. I got myself fired due to bad affects. I cant focus is someone keeps taunting on whatever I do, im not that bad but somehow I get bullied whenever I make a mistake. I was never given room to improve n never appreciated. I just wanna somehow survive these 4 months from May to August. After that, I wont even drink if drinking 1st time affects me. Thats why I was asking for advice.