Alcohol poisoned myself when I was 21, and can’t stand the smell. I’m 31 and I’d like to drink.

So when I was 21 me and my girl friend got together to drink and basically we ended up alcohol poisoning ourselves and blacking out pretty bad. I couldn’t eat for 2 days straight, i was barely able to drink any water. I was a pretty consistent drinker beforehand and never had a problem. Me and my friend basically finished a huge ass bottle of vodka by ourselves with some smirknoff ices (3 each). Ever since then, I haven’t been able to deal with the smell of alcohol. If I smell any of that alcohol smell at all, i start to feel nauseous. I can’t even eat or smell the food flavor of the vodka we had.

I am almost 31 now, and I would like to start drinking again, not heavily, just socially. Are there any alcohols out there that I can start with that don’t have that alcohol smell? There is this one time like three years ago, at a party where someone had mixed vodka with orange juice and I was able to drink that because I couldn’t smell the alcohol. If has any ideas, id appreciate it.