Bad night involving alcohol, poor judgment, and a lot of shame — need advice

I’m posting because I’m struggling with a lot of anxiety and shame and could really use outside perspective.

Last night I went out with my sister and drank far more than I should have. I’ve been emotionally overwhelmed lately, especially with my relationship, and I wasn’t in a good headspace to be drinking. While intoxicated, I flirted with someone and went to his house. Once I was there, I realized it was wrong and not what I wanted. I stopped myself and had him drive me to my boyfriend’s house instead.

When I got there, I fainted outside. EMTs and police were called, and it was honestly humiliating and scary. Physically I’m okay, but emotionally I feel awful.

I regret my choices deeply. I didn’t intend to hurt anyone, and I recognize that alcohol and emotional distress played a role—but I still take responsibility. I can’t stop replaying everything in my head and feel consumed by embarrassment and guilt.

I’m not looking for judgment. I’m trying to understand:

• how to cope with the shame and anxiety after something like this • how to move forward responsibly • and how to reflect without punishing myself

Any advice would really help.