Complicated Drinker. Need help making choice.

Here’s the quick version. In the past A few people in my life expressed their concern with my drinking. My mom hated my drinking because she HATES alcohol no matter what. She got upset with me for having a fifth of rum on hand during vacation as a 30yr old adult. My father was the other one who said he was worried about it. He is a recovered alcoholic of like 15 years now but we have no real relationship. To appease everyone i said fuck it and just stopped. No problem, no courses or AA. Just stopped. I don’t know what im asking really. I wanna enjoy a whiskey but feel weird now. I don’t consider myself “sober” but i havent had a drink in years. I guess what are your thoughts on me starting to drink again?

I think a weird hurdle i have is that its something i have a streak with and if i drink anything i will lose that ” no drinking ” streak. I know that sounds odd but thats really my main barrier mentally.