Urge but no motivation??

Anybody ever get the urge to have a sip especially after a long day of work, but for whatever reason don’t have the motivation to even pick up a bottle to start. For example I have so much alcohol readily available it’s not even funny we’re talking in the 250+ bottle range because I like to collect bourbon. Yet I get home after work and I want to have a sip to wind down and I just sit there and stare but never actually find the energy/motivation to do so. I just end up going to bed tired, hungry, and sober. Might be due to the fact that I work graveyard shift 12+ hours a day 5-6 day a week. It’s just something that bugs me so much because it’s like this weird invisible force preventing me from actually drinking 🤷🏻‍♂️🤷🏻‍♂️🤷🏻‍♂️