I’m thinking about relapse

Hi for context im 22F and im in a sober living program. I was done with my terrible lows of alcohol, so much that I decided to get on a plane and fly from Texas for California. I pretty much became a alcoholic due to trying to cope quth childhood trauma and having to adult and figure things out for myself too quickly with no guidance. Anyways, i came to Cali 3 months ago to get sober and since then my parents were showering me with love saying how proud of me they were. Back in january my abusive ex broke part of my phone that my dad got me for Christmas, and I dropped it in rehab so it completely broke. I need a phone for my sober living program and I didn’t want to depend on this guy for a phome anymore so I went to get my phone fixed, like my father told me too. Anyways I text my dad the cost and he said he doesn’t get paid till next week, and that he’s not giving my access to have authorization on the account and he cant afford to pay off the $298 that he owes on the phone. While otp with him in the store he starts yelling at me saying I was inconsiderate, I shouldn’t have let someone break my phone, I need to figure out things on my own (I’ve been doing that, and saying I only call him when i want something. This upset me alot especially the last comment because I try to call him every day or everyday especially since I’ve been here, and I came here alone with no money so it’s very overwhelming. I won’t see my therapist until Monday, and im going to a meeting with my sponsor in a few hours but I just feel like I dont want to do this anymore. If I leave the program and let myself down oh well im used to it, and obviously my dad and my mom dont care about what im doing and cant be bothered to help me so why would they care if i go drink ? Idk im reality stressed and ive been actively working on myself and healing past wounds but it’s just so much so quick and I just want to drink to stop the tears and pain.