Schizophrenic here with severe physical conditions. Abdominal pain under ribcage (due to severe gastrointestinal issues i get drunk by holding vodka for 15 seconds in my mouth and repeat until i get drunk so it cant be direct abdominal damage)

Borrelia, EBV, dysbiosis, candidosis, e-coli overgrowth, suspected babesia and bartonella. Immunocompressed, disabled, i lie in bed and cant make my own food

Plus info: antipsychotics failed me, left me as a pill addict, i take a box of ambien a day on a fun day Im on a dose of lyrica youd get seizures from stopping, somewhere above 600mg Im on meds your dying grandma doesnt get, 12.5mg phenobarbital Midazolam, 7.5-15mg a day but i skip days I COULD take medical grade tianeptine but i dont need it rn and why abuse something only making my appetite worse?

Main issue: every med makes mw nauseous without ambien, including fucking alcohol