Quit alcohol for 2.5 months but there is a but……

Dear Reddit,

2.5 months I decided to quit alcohol for mental health reasons, although I only drank in the weekend and this would be considered light to moderate consumption. I would always eat healthy, workout and take good care of myself, but the persistent anxiety and some troublesome mental health issues kept reoccurring, the exact nature of this is not the content of this post, but since I quit alcohol most of these issues have subsided and keep improving on a week to week basis. Also I lost weight and I am progressing a lot on many fronts.

But here is the but! Since two weeks I start to feel so splendid again that I am actively thinking about incorporating alcohol in my-lifestyle again. I know this is stupid and I know very well I will feel pretty bad again soon enough if I give in, but still I cant help think of alcohol being amazing if I can just manage it, which I never could effectively!

Why this post? I honestly don’t know why I am thinking this and I dont see any benefits at all of alcohol, but still I feel memory lane pulling me into believing the old lies. Please help me put the right perspective on this!

By the way; I am no way thinking of drinking now, but it is a small voice that seems to be growing and for better wisdom I want to act in wisdom.