Mental health, no negative!

I’m 20 years old and started drinking at 15 when my mum and dad split up. I struggle A LOT with my mental health. My dad was lonely when my parents split up. My dad and I drank, that was our only bonding time because I never really knew my dad. My family has been quite complicated and we have dealt with DV (by my dad) living with him. My dad introduced alcohol when I was around 16 as a way to bond with me with me. Ever since then I’ve drank every weekend with both my mum and dad because I don’t actually have friends. My mum and I have moved away recently and me drinking has caused a problem. It’s my way of dealing with things at a young age. I did some gardening to help with my mental health but it didn’t last in the long run. I quit and I’m a lot better for it. But it did resurface a lot of depressed feelings that I didn’t expect to return. There’s a lot more I can include but I can’t. I need more positive things than negative. I have dealt with major depression, anxiety, PSTSD ADHD, and ASD. Please no NEGATIVE comments , KEEP IT TO YOURSELF!