Weed / Alcohol Afterglow?

Hello, all. To make it simple, these last few weekends I have been getting stoned off my ass and drinking, (however this weekend in specific was more significant than previously.)

I got extremely fucked up and texted people (that I definitely should not have texted that night), but I also ended up rehashing stuff with old friends today (the morning after the smoking and drinking.)

There is 1 issue though. Every time I smoke / drink and then crash, I end up waking up feeling kind of open minded, and I have an issue where I just speak what comes to mind. Like, I have less control, I guess.

I’m not sure if this is a thing with weed or alcohol, however, one significant thing that I had occur was that I found myself talking to an old (FEMALE) friend, and I kind of think I secretly find myself into her.. but the feelings seem alot stronger at the current moment.

I guess what I’m worried about is that, it’s just the weed / alcohol talking to me and secretly it’s not the reality sober me would think of it to be, but part of me also thinks maybe it’s just bringing to surface the reality of things.