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i feel like i struggle to get “drunk”, i always feel so conscious and aware and i’m always drinking more than the people around me. i’m only 95 pounds, a girl, 5’3 and 18. i understand that maybe it’s because i used to do other drugs slightly but i don’t really get how that would impact my reaction to alcohol. does it have to do with mental health mostly?. i’m just very confused on why i can’t seem to get silly drunk like other girls my size and age. I just am constantly very conscious of my being and abilities. i’m always the one who is asked to do things when intoxicated because it never really effects me how it does others. I’ll always drink more then everyone around me although i’m always the one comforting those who are too drunk because i seem sober. just wondering if there’s true reasoning to this, just sorta wish i could feel drunk i suppose