Im just ranting idk

Okay so to put some context im a 15 yo guy and my parents are not together so I live at two different places. They always split up the holidays and I’m at my father’s for august until september.

I haven’t gotten drunk since july. I drank a bit but I think I might have a good tolerance to alcohol because I didn’t get drunk even after two shots of tequila and a gin tonic with a more than good amount of gin.

And I seriously miss so much being drunk. Like, I feel so much better when I am and I don’t get that sick the morning after so theres practically no bad thing happening to me when I drink.

It’s weird because even just after descuver a bit, I feel so bad I wanna get drunk again.

I feel bad or empty most of the time, I think that’s why I like being drunk. It just makes things feel so easier and better

Anyways, I feel very edgy to write all this but I needed to write it