A complication of being an alcoholic

Sober im in a constant bitch “leave me alone” type of mind state i drink alcohol to change my personality and i become magnetic but people want to hang around me too much for too long and it becomes frustrating because i like my freedom too much and being by myself. I do like to socialize but lightly I don’t want people hanging around me too much and it’s always a matter of yeah this was fun for a minute but how do i get rid of them? I purposely do not have friends I find freedom in being alone I was in a situation where I constantly had to be around someone 24/7 at knife point and couldn’t be within 4 feet of other people or 4 feet away from them since they’ve been out of my life I like being alone most of the time.