Tips for getting drunk but not blacking out…. I blacked out in front of my gfs family

Im am 24 yo male….I really do enjoy drinking, whether it’s going out, getting a buzz at a restaurant on a date night, drinking a few at a sports game, having some beers at a cookout etc…. I might even drink 2-3 on a weeknight while i cook dinner/meal prep.

I love drinking to get a buzz, my problem is about every 3 months or so I BLACK out. And this isn’t a “oops I had a few too many” this is a I slammed 9 more drinks while I was ALREADY blacked out… continuing to drink even though I’m completely incoherent, embarrassing myself, and will drink until I literally pass out.

And a bigger problem is I just did this in front of my girlfriend’s family… I stayed with them for 2 days on their beach vacation, and while everyone drank casually on the beach, maybe getting a buzz or a bit tipsy…. I was slugging beers all day and by the time we had dinner I was wasted but still chugging beers until I blacked out… then I probably had 6-8 more drinks while I was blacked out… just becoming more and more incoherent and a drunk idiot.

I don’t think I did anything super embarrassing but my girlfriend just told me I was not making sense when I was talking and we tried to play pool and basically I couldn’t at all. And obviously I look completely wasted with my eyes half closed and not a brain cell functioning. Like I literally drank 18+ beers. My girlfriend likes drinking too, and has blacked out her fair share of times…. But why TF am I behaving this way in front of her family.

This is not a new occurrence for me, I’ve passed out drunk on the couch after thanksgiving dinner with my family/friends, been incoherent at a bar countless times…. Etc etc.

I am able to drink moderately most the time(when I say moderately I mean getting drunk, not blacking out, which for me is still probably about 7-9 drinks). 5-7 drinks for me I’ll be at a good buzz, being myself but maybe a little more talkative and just in a good mood. I just need a method to CONTROL my drinking and get a buzz to be social.

I don’t know what it is that triggers me to drink 10+ drinks, black out, then somehow drink 8 more while I’m already blacked out and incoherent.

These situations give me anxiety for 2-3 weeks, yes weeks not days. And of course I’m hungover for 2-3 days after consuming 15+ drinks.

I’ve done this to myself countless times but I don’t know what happens, I get in a drinking mood and forget all the countless times I’ve blacked out and been incoherent and embarrassing, hungover for 3 days, and embarrassed for a month. I honestly think it has taken a negative hit on my overall confidence and self esteem when I’m in my head and having hanxiety for 2 weeks after I have a bad black out night…every few months since I’ve been 18 probably.

Maybe just set a super strict limit of how many drinks I can have. Like no matter what I can not have any more than 6 in a day…. Tbh I don’t think that’d work tho

I don’t know even after embarrassing myself countless times and being incoherent drunk in front of my family, girlfriends family, saying and doing who knows what while I’m blacked out…

I definitely have had thoughts that I should quit completely…. But by Friday I’m always ready to have a drink… then the next few weeks or months will be fine and dandy, until here my dumb ass goes again…. not being able to control my drinking one random night.

So if anyone has any tips on how to drink moderately or just to switch the idiot version of myself off that decides every 2 months that drinking until I literally pass out is a good idea… that’d be much appreciated