drowning in alcoholism

I am a week not drinking, but the cravings are intense!! I’m 2 years into an addiction I’ve tried a few times not to get sober, everything feels like a pink cloud right now and I know that a sip of wine will bring me down but for whatever reason the urge is more then the life destroying actions I make. I’ve lost my job My family And for the first time I even went to lock up for breaching a police order, my first time I trouble with the law in 31 years.. black out drunk. when will this end? Or is this forever. will I be happy again? I use to be the sunshine in a room now I feel like a cloud, a dark cloud. I can only fake it so much ahhh.