i use alcohol as a control method on myself

i’m beginning to become somewhat of a control freak…i hate it, i have a very chaotic life that seems to always have a new big hill to climb around every corner, this being said im not here to cry about my life, this is specifically about my control issues, it started with simple things like an over obsession in my self care routines (which can be a healthy outlet) i began to clean my room in the day time on the daily obsessing on every last detail, then it leaked out into the rest of my life, now i clean every surface i come across simply for the feeling of control, i started becoming obsessed with variables in my life i could control and became addicted to it. staying up till 3 AM most nights perfecting budgets on my phone, getting on garage band, and drawing to the point my hands would get sore my head would hurt and i have no option but to fall asleep. so started drinking pretty damn heavy recently and i love losing my control when i drink, it feels freeing, but a new revelation is that I CAN use alcohol as a new variable of control in my life and i think it’s a big part of my addictive mind set. does anyone one else go through these kind of processes?