Why doesn’t anyone notice??

Hey all… This might be entertaining because guess what, I’m drunk. I was promoted at my last job, I quit because management was fucked. New job, started as a manager, now I get the opportunity of a lifetime and my boss is talking to me about giving it up if he gives me something better and bigger. Plot twist: I am drunk. I am always drunk. I’m possibly an undiagnosed borderline and struggle with occasional depression, social anxiety and all the dark shit that comes with it. I was once upon a time a normal person but due to trauma here we are. Do people notice? Surely if they did they wouldn’t be promoting me and giving me some serious jobs to do. The thing is, I function fine drunk, my job is mainly people relations so I do great. I’ve heard only the addicted person thinks this way and everyone thinks you’re a clown but I think not, guys. What the hell can I replace alcohol with to be more aware and conscious of my actions? I can’t do prescribed medication due to job. Side note: I take public transport to work, no danger to others, other than my stupidity.

Thank you all xx