Is this too much?

I (M18) currently drink around 5.5 liters of vodka a week, and I day drink to fight withdrawal aswell. I’ll wake up at times during the night needing to take a few shots to sleep, and I shake heavily when I stop after a heavy heavy binge. This cycle will go on for months, I’ll stop for a small bit, and then right back to it as soon as I start. I feel very alone because nobody around me drinks even close to the amount I do, and I’m afraid I’m even worse than most seasoned alcoholics. Is my journey normal? I usually hear people talk about a 6 pack while I’m over here drinking vodka out of the bottle, I hide it and nobody around me knows unless I actively show them the bottle. Can anyone relate to drinking this much? If so how has your journey been?