any way to make myself hate alcohol less?

i fucking hate the taste. i didnt use to be like that, i used to chug 40% vodka no chaser when i was like 14 but then i got passed out drunk one time too many and now im broken. even looking at a bottle of liquor makes me actually gag (things like beer of wine arent triggering, cuz i never drank low % stuff). am i permanently broken now? i drink so rarely, all my friends go out to drink and i like being drunk, sure, but its not worth the taste for me, especially when other stuff can make me feel way better without tasting any disgusting shit. i just mixed like 200 ml of vodka with 400 ml of cola, i added lemon too, its in the freezer rn and i am SCARED. im drinking alone to build my tolerance to the taste, but i might actually throw up. is there anything i can do to get over the fear of alcohol? dont get me wrong, its nice not getting hangovers, throwing up, blacking out, its all cool. but when my friends drink socially i dont want to be the only sober one, so i gotta rebuild my IMMUNITY to it