2 shots and i feel like a normal person

i’m not diagnosed with anything, but i have a really bad problem with being constantly hyper-aware of everything i do. but after two shots of decently-proofed liquor, i let my guard down just a bit and i feel much more grounded in reality, in a good way. i only drink twice a week, tuesday and saturday, so don’t worry. i’m not going to have a problem, and i’ve been aware of this “remedy” for a while now. does anyone relate?