I am scared

I only have two beers left. A couple half warm ones. I am out of gabapentin. The withdrawals are going to come on soon. I went last month for detox and went into a fatal seizure. I don’t remember it, but 4 nurses had to hold me down to administer a high dose of Ativan in my IV port. I’m scared and just need someone to talk to. No Gabapentin left, only 2 24oz 8 percent alcohol left. I know it’s going to be bad. I can only type now because I have the gabapentin and alcohol in my system. I am scared.