I hate alcohol, how do I get drunk?

As a beginner, 32f, I have tried beer, cheap box wine, alcoholic popsicles, and a friend offered me spiked soda (I don’t like soda, but tried it anyway). I have even tried to mix the wine with cranberry juice until I couldn’t taste the alcohol at all and I got the runs from it. I’m also a super skinny person so it should be easy for me to get drunk, but my taste buds won’t let me even finish one drink. My brain knows it’s poison. Am I doomed to just never experience being drunk? I also wanna drink at home only