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This won’t be too long but I had found my mother dead at 18, year before I graduated. Class of 2019. O had already graduated and coincidental thing is she died on my fathers birthday, November 19th, which makes me so weirded out, how the hell does she die on my mothers birthday. Anyway, she is a or nurse and was supposed to work 7-11 that day and I woke up at about 10 and saw her car in the driveway and I was like wtf? Her door was closed “to the master” and I opened the door and saw her laying on the ground. She shit herself and I did cpr on her and she coughed up blood and throw up. After that I felt her pulse and nothing, so I knew what was going on, and the first person I called was my beloved father, cause he had dealt with this before “without her being deceased, so after that I called 911, fire department show up and says there’s nothing we can do… point is I was 18 and was so traumatized it’s so sad but to top it off I have a brain tumor and epilepsy and I thought I was going to have a seizure but I didn’t but I have so much trauma it affects me so bad, brain tumor, seizures, ptsd, it affects me so bad. I’ve overcome the feelings a little bit bit I still get flashbacks, I’m now 23 but it still had an impact on me. Male. Should I try and find a gf to cope with this. Been single about 2 years. Thank you.