Drinking Is The Real Me ?

When I drink, I feel like that is who I really am and how I am suppose to be. I am a quiet, shy, & introverted girl, & when I drink occasionally, I feel so alive!!!!! I be wanting to dance, jump up and down, do cartwheels and just hug people!!! The sober me is really reserved, not really affectionate, and I know for certain I would not dance in front of anyone in public. I am in a chock hold with myself because why do I feel so extremely bubbly when drinking, but so sheepish when I am sober. It is so weird and has me questioning the real me ? Like deep deep questioning. I have some self loving to do because the way I am when I drink is the way I would love to be in reality.

Even tho l like the feeling of me drinking, I only drink occasionally! ( 21 F)