I am “relapsing” after 40 days sober. Life is short and alcohol is great

You only live once, so imma make the most of it. My sober time has been filled with a debilitating pit of depression and loneliness. I’m 6 drinks in and fuck I feel ALIVE, I feel human again. I feel almost euphoric, like I’m reuniting with an old friend. I love alcohol ❤️