I am an alcoholic

I am a 24 year old man, who has been struggling with alcohol addiction for the past 5 years. Every time I get together with friends or family, i’m getting blackout drunk before they can finish their 3rd drink.

Last year I was stupid enough to get myself a dui, have been without a license for about 6 months now, which drives me to want to drink more.

I have an amazing career, i’m a 4th year electrical apprentice making good money, but I can’t seem to get my life on track, and it’s all due to alcohol.

My mother who I love more than anything told me that she doesn’t want me coming to any more family events if i’m going to be wasted every time, which I totally agree with. The problem for me is that I can’t socialize, can’t have fun, can’t make others laugh without alcohol, and if it isn’t involved I don’t want to be there.

It’s horrible, everyone around me notices how drunk I get all the time and they care and worry for me, but I just don’t care anymore, especially after my dui. I’d rather get plastered by myself than go anywhere sober.

People of reddit who have been in my situation, what helped you quit drinking, even in situations that make you want to drink more? Any advice would greatly help me, thank you