what should i drink?

I have never consumed alcohol in my life, I don’t want to continue, I only drank wine, it was bad, now I want to try alcohol and I can’t decide what to drink, I won’t be addicted, I will drink it because I’m curious, because I think I need to relax my mind, I also use medication, but I think nothing will happen if I don’t drink it for a day, what should I do, what do you think? I’m curious about the vodka I should drink, I’ve never even drank beer in my life. I’m afraid of what kind of mood I’ll get into when I drink. Anyway, I’m waiting for your alcohol suggestions (community) (ım 18)