I’ve hit rock bottom

I’ve been feeling really low and have had a drinking promblem for a while now but it’s spiralled out of control for the past few months, I’ve currently moved to another country alone and have been going out drinking and making a fool out of myself but I over did it on Wednesday. I have never felt more anxious in my life and I haven’t slept for more than 20 minutes either no matter what I do or medications I take. It feels like i have bricks weighing on my chest and I’m about to burst with anxiety, im crying while typing this. I’ve got no friends and I’ve been lying to my family for ages. I feel so horrible I’ve never felt this in my life. I can’t move I’ve officially killed my brain chemistry