Is getting pissed off that I can’t drink a bad sign?

I (26 M) am home alone for a couple days and want to get drunk so fucking bad but I can’t because my ID is expired. My parents are pieces of shit that hate alcohol with a passion and don’t allow me to drink in the house and my father gets angry when I talk about alcohol in a glorifying way and he says it’s ’stupid,’ which is bullshit cause alcohol is amazing and I love getting drunk every night when I buy a couple bottles and I wish I had people in my life that would buy me alcohol whenever I wanted some, but unfortunately I am only around people who hate it.

I do get really mean and nasty when I’m super drunk if I already find the person annoying when I’m sober, but most of the time I’m drinking by myself in the basement after my family goes to bed late at night. This one time I got really wasted and texted a coworker that I thought it was hilarious that his brother died and I was giggling while typing it out. He was pissed off at me for a while and said he’d never forgive me for it but I didn’t care and I still don’t.

Last time I had alcohol I bought 3 bottles of spiced rum (which I love), and got wasted every night and finished them all in 6 days.

Anyway I want to buy alcohol again and get wasted until I puke and pass out now but I’m pissed off that I can’t buy any (my aunt told me earlier tonight that’s a tell that I shouldn’t drink at all, but I don’t understand why) and I wish I could get someone to buy some for me.

I’m not addicted yet but when I get my own place someday I can’t wait to get drunk every night haha.