ive been drunk for 4 days

im a 21 y/o autistic F

Decided to do some drinking on a random Thursday with my bf. (we don’t typically drink, but we do smoke🍃)

my man and I drank about 5/6 times before, just to get a buzz but this time I had a mission to get pissed.

safe to say I did. I couldn’t stand for myself. my knees would give right under me, my poor sweet boyfriend had to carry me to bed where I slept all night.

next Friday morning, I woke up quite dizzy. I thought that was typical hangover symptoms, since that was the first time I actually got drunk. the more the day went on, the more my body began to feel more drunk? my speech was slower, I was very dizzy fumbling over myself, pain just didn’t exist? loud yada yada I got concerned but continued to brush it off.

Saturday! same thing from yesterday. but x2

Sunday!! I can’t play any video game due to being so out of it, it takes so much effort for me to do anything. walking, forming proper sentences, think. I was honestly thinking of ending it, being drunk for 3 days isnt fun.

today is monday, im still kinda out of it but I just feel like im not in my body? if the makes sense.. I feel like a little being in my brain controlling my body. its not me.

I dont feel real

I try to play games but it still feels like im just watching something, its not me

(I apologize for my writing im still not feeling very ‘normal’) any insight or advice would help, thank you