How do people of legal drinking age manage to not drink weekly/bi-weekly?

Hello. Starting this off by saying I’m underaged, and I’ve been drinking to cope lately.

I have a weird relationship with alcohol. It has damaged some of my relationships with people (ex. drunk texting the girl I love when she begged me not to drink) but it has mended some of them (ex. drunk texting all my friends about how much I love and appreciate them, impulsively apologizing for things).

Last night I felt so shitty I downed an entire bottle of soju in 2 minutes on an empty stomach.

It’s the best I’ve felt all week. My problems felt like they didn’t matter as much. I drunk texted the girl I liked again (and presumably disappointed her) but I also drunk texted a good friend about how much I appreciate her and she sent me back a long speech about how she appreciated me as well. I was dancing and singing, laughing and crying, man it was great.

Fast forward to today, had a bad hangover so I just rotted in bed all day listening to music and regretting things. But I also couldn’t stop thinking about when I can get my next drink. It isn’t the best for your body though, so I only try to drink a few times per week. Sometimes once or sometimes none.

My question is, if alcohol makes you feel so great, how do you not crave getting drunk at least weekly or bi-weekly, which shouldn’t be so bad on your body?

It baffles me how some people manage to drink only in social situations or during special occasions.