I live in a tent now

I managed to break my trailer bathroom door in half and punched one of our trailer windows ajar two days ago. I also destroyed my whole pc gaming setup. I drank that night and I remember taking like 6 or so shots then I just woke up with my keyboard next to me. All I could think was what the fuck. Then I see all the texts from my girlfriend. I managed to wake up her mom…and the pictures of my PC stuff… And she’s like your going to your grandparents. I was like alright… And then now I’m here at my grandparents. Her family won’t let me come back even though I paid the 4 grand on the trailer+ it’s in my girls name ( stupid I know ). I’ve never gotten drunk like this around them until now, but they kinda have PTSD because the moms husband just had a drinking issue and was cheating like crazy and he’s gone all Christian and shit now. I know I fucked up and I’m trying to get my shit back together. I currently live In a humble tent in a garage now. I think I retire from alcohol at the ripe age of 20. it will be interesting to see where this goes.