I am struggling and need help

Anonymous for obvious reasons. I started drinking when I was 18. At first it was for fun and to party. I was in the military and it was what everyone did to have a good time. When I was 20, I started to drink alone. It started on a Wednesday. I remember it vividly. I was going through so much shit with my wife after my 2nd combat deployment and I didn’t work until night shift. For the first time I got drunk alone. For the first time I let myself go. Ever since then it got worse. I started drinking every day. Back then it was finishing a handle of captain Morgan within 2-3 days. Now it is drinking whatever I can to get drunk. I’ve told my family I’m sober now. So I drink discreetly and it’s gotten so bad that I’m wasted and they don’t even know it. Today, as I’m typing this, I started drinking at 3pm. I drank 7 bottles of 375ml wine bottles but my wife doesn’t even know. We bought these wine boxes (6 bottles per box, 375ml bottles) on clearance for just under 5 buck a box. I told me wife these would be for Christmas presents and we bought 8 boxes. We gave 2 for presents. I’ve been sneaking bottles and drinking and my wife doesn’t know. I’ve been sneaking drinks for the past 2 months before this. I was buying beers, shooters, etc for the past that would get me drunk enough without being too wasted so she wouldn’t know. She thinks I’ve gotten drunk twice in the last 60 days. I’ve been drunk 60 times in the last 60 days…….

I have 2 kids. I am 24. I have so much riding on the line and I can’t keep doing this. I am so depressed and struggling so bad with MH and it’s the only way I know how to cope. I need some help guys. What should I do? Will AA help? I can’t go to rehab. It would ruin my career now. I’m feeling very lost. I am drunk even as of righting this and am so ashamed.