Please help

I am 25 F and I’m having problems. I’m drunk as we speak and just vomitted in order to be comfortable to go to bed. My dad is an alcohol and over the last few months I’ve been drinking every day. I wake up and want a shot.. my boyfriend does not drink and I have been hiding this from him, family and friends. What’s someone that helps yall to cope/not drink..? I’m afraid to die and know that this habit will greatly affect my liver/future. I want to get sober but it’s so hard. I literally had anesthesia today and researched “how long after anesthesia can I drink alcohol”. The consensus was 24 hours yet I’m still shit faced. I hate myself because I feel that I will never overcome this. I need advice on my next steps or what helps you all overcome the urge to drink. Thank you <3