Why do I get some time and always relapse shortly after.

Hey guys 26 year old male and, I’ve been to 7 treatment detoxs/30 day program combos and I shortly get out and want to go back out a month or two later to numb the pain, i have 6 months on 11/16/23. I have a great sponsor who has 17 years and took through the steps. Im moving into my own place this week after 5 months at the sober house and month in residental in CT. Im in florida now and have a job, the money isnt great. But I enjoy it, but it always feels like somethings missing, in CT or FL. Thanks for reading , be safe.