Everything I do has me feeling like a fiend for it.

I’ve been drinking about one of these every day (I might make it last 2 days) for around 6 months now. It makes me a person that I wanna be, I talk more, I might sound dumb as fuck sometimes. But I still feel like I’m more Like-able drunk. I’ve tried switching to only weed, but I’ve been smoking gas for so long I don’t really get high. If I do it’s for a maximum of 10 minutes. I’ve done shrooms about 6 times now in the past 4 months and they haven’t taught me anything. I just wanna know why I’m like this