Im leaving my husband

Im leaving my husband. We have been married for almost 3 years. It shatters my heart I love him so much and we planned to buy our first house in a few months and start a family. He’s a serious alcoholic. He’s never hit me. But when he drinks he yells and calls me bad words and names. 3 weeks ago he came home wasted he had 16 vodka shots and he was yelling and screaming at me and punched a home in the wall. I was scared and more scarred because our dog just had puppies they were hours old. I was scared he was going to hurt the puppies. He then fell down our stairs and landed weird in his neck I thought he broke it and the. He rolled over and grabbed his heart in pain. I panicked and called 911 for an ambulance he then jumped up and ran out side barefoot and without his glasses. I dolt the dispatcher on the phone they truth that he was super drunk and punched a hole in the wall and is suicidal when he’s this drunk. The cops came and arrested him for “criminal damage” for the hole. It was a DV charge. After his day in jail he apologized and said he’d never drink again. And he did good…for 3 weeks he started drinking again and he acted horrible tonight. I’m done. I’m scared to be single again I turn 29 in a week. I don’t care if I don’t find someone else again I just don’t want to live like this. In fear what mood he’ll be in his drunk he will be the stress freaks me out and I feel like it ruined my hormones for a while. If jail didn’t scare him enough to get sober than nothing will and I know I can’t bring kids I tk this mess. When he’s sober he’s a different person and I love that person. He have fun together and enjoy each other but I can’t handle his addiction and he told me today he missed drinking he loves it to much and I feel like he picked alcohol over me. I’m sad. We planned our life out and he threw it away over a buzz. 🙁 I’m packing my stuff first thing in the morning and going to my parents house dogs and all were gone.